thanksgiving. . .

i was looking forward to today all week
then i got sick sunday and ive had a cold all week

i was psyched cause its kinda cleared up mostly so i got to actually taste food today.
yay
yeah well.
that was almost the highlight of my day.


started off going out to walmart getting a pie crust and soda for my mom.
ok.
i looked at cars at winner while i was out there. only to be taunted with what i cant have
then i go home.
chill with my family and my mom wanted help in the kitchen.
i was fine until she yelled at me for almost using a spoon instead of a fork for the stuffing
i understand youre supposed to use a fork. the spoon was convient.
its not gonna kill it.
i left the kitchen when she yelled at me for that.
dinner. . ok.
were done and aparently its rip on liz night.
my sister made me feel like complete shit tonight.
no lie.
like she just killed me. and i really didnt want to go to my grandmas for dessert but she had to go to work so she wouldnt be there
i had left for like a half hour to go look at cars in franklin and at abc.
good thing i did
cause then i went home actually kinda excited and got knocked down cause i wont get them.

i mean be a bitch. whatever. but can we give it a rest for once?
can i get a break to be happy with SOMETHING in my life?
nope.
shes there to kill it.

i dunno it totally killed my day that she felt she needed to do it.
and all i wanted to do was come home all day
im so sick of the fake smile i had all afternoon.







not that today wasnt hard enough being the 2 year anniversary of my grandfathers death
but her giving me shit all night was just annoying


and it was all because i said something about her using my dads phone
whatever use it
i was only asking if you text on it
i mean it is my phone
my plan
i gave it to him yeah
but its mine
sorry if im worried about my bill.
some of us have bills to worry about
sorry


whatever. now im thinking about it again and im getting mad all over
AND i have to be AT work for 5am tomorrow so thats not making me happy at all.


i think i need to go smoke my head off and HOPE i get more tomorrow.



in fact. i think thats what i WILL do


night.