the holidays
they make you feel amazing at times and then theres me. i always find a way to make the holidays make me feel like shit. looking back at all the shittty times. takes away all my positive thinking and hope.
makes me go back to the times when i didnt want anything to go on. just being happy is something i miss so much sometimes. and people ask me why and what they can do. nothing this is all in my head. i hate talking to people about it cause i know in the end i still wont feel better. i just tell them i do to take the heat off.
seriously.
just let me be happy.

little things

why do some of the smallest things seem to bother me the most.
" if she brings a date, which she probably wont."
kills the heart.